Yep.

50 pounds.

Maybe even more.

There is no secret, gimmicks, gadgets, pills or fancy shakes

All it took was a good ol’ fashion Oprah “A-HA!” moment.

And I had it.

And the burdens that I have been carrying on my shoulders left.

It was magic.

Really.

And, I’m not quite sure I have the exact language to explain my epiphany yet. I’m not sure I’ve completely wrapped my brain around it, either. So, I can’t really tell you exactly what the Big O  A-Ha was, either.

All I know, is that as I walked into a cave, it wasn’t dark any more.

There was no pain, anger, animosity, frustration, sadness, hope, desire, happiness, bitterness or even passive aggressiveness.

All there existed was Existence in and of itself.

There was a soft breeze of calm.

The sweet scent of renewal.

The brave face of courage.

The quiet giggle of happiness.

A horizon of new opportunity…far enough away to imagine the possibilities, but close enough to believe in them as well.

It was a powerful day.

I have spent a lot of hours over the course of the last year thinking, assessing, mourning, plotting and writing.

I was organizing.

Putting thoughts in different categories, shelving and re-shelving different emotions. 

And the Big O was the culmination of all this organizing.

And I have felt amazingly renewed.

People have literally been coming up to me, strangers and loved ones alike, telling me how amazing I look.

My Big O is shining through because the 50 pounds I lost have opened up my spirit, which can now conveniently shine through

(which, by the way, I’m chalking up to my Mary Kay and have used the opportunity to SHARE why I Love Mary Kay with these people who say I’m “radiant” – I offer a warm thank-you and offer my MK Card

I have felt happier, lighter, more focused, more determined, more.

Just MORE.

Back in January, I was at a yoga practice, where the inspiring yoga lady said that it would be a year of Abundance.

It’s taken me awhile to grasp it.

Abundance.

And YES

This IS my year of abundance.

Abundance of love, happiness, opportunity, family, friends, business, education.

Abundance of Existence.

Abundance of Being.

I haven’t been abundant in anything for a long time.

I’ve been apathetic.

And once I lost that 50 pounds, all of the sudden, I had the energy and the strength to care.

I had the strength to invite good into my world.

And I’m exuberant.

I’m living in abundance.

I’m blessed.

I’m appreciative.

I exist.

I love my life.

Now – not to rain on my own parade of abundance, all of this cotton candy talk isn’t to say I’m not abundantly realistic. I know challenges, work, tears and more emotions are on my way. All obstacles that I’ll need to take head on as they present themselves.

But, I’m ready.

Like always.

Focused. Determined. Passionate. Strong.

But, now I’m abundantly so.

And all this abundance is stemming from a good place.

 A place I like.

A place I trust.

A place I’ve missed.

Life is good.

And more importantly…thank you for allowing me to share it with you.